Long Gone

If you wake up one morning and find you're missing someone
don't look for me,
I have long been gone from your bed, your life
you just didn't notice.
Wrapped up in your own world living in torment
you forgot my hand holding yours,
You sought the darkness when I brought you light,
you craved loneliness even in my company.
You chose not to live with me but without me.
I have gone away to seek the pieces of me that have fallen
along the road when I chose to follow you.
Pieces of me that broke every time you shroud yourself
with the veil of selfishness and forgetfulness.
The pain was worth it or so I thought
for I wished that I could save you from the darkness in you.
And yet it wasn't enough was it?
The things I did was for you and only you
yet you dismissed them as if they're worth nothing.
The plans we built as we whispered into the night
were all for naught since they are now scattered into the wind.
You tortured me with your indifference
your silence, the feigned interest.
How could I go on when you didn't even notice my despair?
I have fallen hard and the pain is just everywhere,
I lied when I said I was strong because I didn't want you to see
the fragile stitches that make the most of me.
One cut and the rest will unravel,
flailing, falling, breaking, dying.

-eamarifosque 121913-

Hanggang saan dadalhin ng mga paang naglalakbay
ang takbo ng iyong isipang puno ng katanungan.
Habang pilit nitong hinahanap ang kasagutan
sa ilalim ng bote ng alak at kinang ng yosing nakasindi.
Nasa bawat buga ba ng usok mula sa mga labing
tila walang kakayahang bumuo ng salita,
ang mga sagot sa mga tanong na dala ng iyong isipan?
Panonoorin mo lamang ba ang usok ng sigarilyo
na umikot at sumayaw sa iyong harapan
hanggang sa tangayin ito ng ihip ng hangin?

-eamarifosque 080113-

Waiting

Waiting in silence, waiting in darkness.
The lights are turned off while the moon is full,
everything is in place except for you.
Where you are, I don't have a clue.
Still I sit, waiting patiently for a glimpse of you.
The night deepens its hold on the sky,
and the stars have come alive,
but there is still no sign of you.
And yet here I am still waiting.
Waiting like a stone statue that watches,
never moving yet being torn apart by winds of time.
Waiting still even when the night gave way
to the day that creeps from its hiding place.
Waiting without thought
just hoping against hope.

-eamarifosque 042913-

Beloved

Beloved, you are wanted by this heart that craves
a love like yours that no one else can replace.
Hungry for the quiet bliss that you'll permit
to give this heart that longs for your embrace.
Beloved, that's who you are.
An endearment I will whisper after your name.
A word so simple yet has a world of meanings
but only one name that belongs to my heart.
Beloved, be mine even for a night.
I'll not let you go but wrap you in my arms so tight.
Listen to my heartbeat and hear its tempo
the sound of my love I long to share with you.
Beloved, I will keep my promise
to have patience while I wait
for you to escape the darkness that you are in
and I'll be here to save you when you call my name.

-eamarifosque 042913-

Will You

Will you be in my dreams, my sweet?
Will you wait till I close my eyes?
Will you be there waiting for me?
Will you wait the night?
Will you come and sit by my side?
Will you stare into my deep brown eyes?
Will you let your fingers caress my skin?
Will you let your lips linger on mine?
Will you hold me tight tonight of all nights?
Will you be there when I open my eyes?
Will you be there sleeping by my side?

-eamarifosque 042613-

A Virus that Kills

Flushed cheeks and labored breathing,
pulse beating and pounding like crazy.
The noise of the crowd is receding,
hearing nothing but you speaking.
Trembling hands and weakened knees,
what madness is this, can you tell me please?
My mind's thoughts are all quiet and still,
cold as ice like last year's winter's chill.
I am tempted to reach out and kiss
those lips of yours to taste real bliss.
But perhaps this is just a prelude to a dream,
where things may not be what they seem.
Or a deadly virus that is spreading inside me,
and one that I won't do anything but leave it be.

-eamarifosque 042513-

Half Past Two

Trading smiles at half past two,
we cared nothing for the people passing by.
Our thoughts centered on the sparks that flew
across the space between us,
electrifying us to mobility,
until our steps carried us to each other.
And in the seconds that passed our eyes communed,
like long lost lovers found anew.
A tentative touch to brush off a lock of hair,
a gesture so simple yet so sweet.
Your hand reached out as did mine,
and we felt the familiar taste of fear
that only new found love can bring.
But in the depths of our hearts we knew,
that this is the one we shall hold true.

-eamarifosque 042413-

Decomposing Love

Tethered to the night, this love is slowly dying,
fed to the winds in hopes it will reach you in time.
But the stillness of the wind trapped it in space,
unable to fly free and find your heart.

Disillusioned with silence and fearing abandonment,
it searches for a place to crash its body and break.
Throwing itself upon jagged rocks that protrude
from hell that only this heart has ever known.

Breaking.

Breaking constantly the hurts you've laid
on its soul of souls,
that is hidden deep within closed doors.
Bathed in tears and blood that flow,
drowning it slowly in torment and confusion.

And in the days you kept to yourself in silence,
the heart that was once given to you to hold,
is now slowly decomposing in the shadows of your
memory,
a figment of your imagination forgotten,
fading to nothing but dust carried away by the wind.

-eamarifosque 042313-

In Dreams

In dreams we give
each other a kiss.
A kiss on lips
hungry for its taste.
In dreams we hold
each other's hands
with a promise tattooed
on each other's heart.
In dreams we love
forever and ever.
Close your eyes dear heart,
let's dream together.

-eamarifosque 042113-

Papel

pirapirasong papel tangay ng hangin
palayo sa mga kamay na pumupunit
sa mga pahina ng libro ng buhay.
unti unting inaalis ang mga alaalang
nagdulot ng pait at sakit habang ang 
mga tala'y patuloy na nakatingin. 
at ang mga luha ay patuloy sa pagdaloy
sa mga kanyang mga mata.
marahang pinupunit ang mga katagang
isinulat sa mga blankong papel ng kahapon, 
mga alaalang di na nais balik balikan. 
at sa bawat pilas ng papel na syang inaalis, 
ang syang pagpatak ng luha at pag dugo ng
pusong naulit na namang nasawi.

-eamarifosque 042013- 

Untitled

Staring out to the sea
with the wind caressing her hair,
she watches the sun settling
back to its warm cozy bed.
The coming of the night
stirred no dread in her heart,
even when houses start to bar
their windows and their doors.
Creeping from the cracks from the pavements,
and crevices from tattered walls,
the shadows come riding the
screeching sound of the furious wind,
that picks up fallen leaves, sticks and stones,
hurling them at silent houses making noise.
Shadows that hunt for spaces in between
and souls from within,
hungry for life that was taken from them
unexpectedly.
And by the rocky shores of the sea,
as the shadows gallop and caper all night,
she stands still with a sinister smile
playing on her lips.

-eamarifosque 041913-

Disco ball

Swirling lights that coruscate,
colors blooming on shadowed walls.
Giving life to darkened chambers
when all the lights are turned off.
Turning round and round
like hundreds of stars that glisten,
rainbow dots on a rounded ball
slowly dancing the night away.



-eamarifosque 041813-

Shape this Heart

Shape this heart with hands that love
mold it with honesty and care.
Banish the clouds of doubt that formed
replace it with trust forevermore.
Heal the wounds sustained in grief
patch them up with kisses sweet.
Open doors barred from within
bring back the light long hidden.
Stem the flow of precious tears that fall
entice a smile on bowed lips.
Hold this heart in hands that care
for it is fragile and can easily disappear.



-eamarifosque 041713-

Through Your Eyes

Through your eyes I saw how pretty life can be,
even when the sun gets obscured by dark clouds,
and the rain comes down pouring hard,
it will always end like problems do
with a bit of sunshine and rainbows too.

Through your eyes I saw how darkness can easily
consume
the mind of someone lost in love and hurt,
but then you showed me what loving hands can do
to hidden wounds and scars of long ago.

Through your eyes I saw how I can be a better version
of me,
when I thought I can go no further you were the one
who pulled me onwards.
Now it's my turn to show you how wonderful life can be,
if only you took the time to stop and see the world
right here with me.




-eamarifosque 041613-

Falling Leaf

Because I wasn't able to go online yesterday, this was my poem for yesterday.

Falling like a leaf that has already let go
of its hold from the branches of the tree,
falling ever so slowly carried by the wind.
Dancing and turning in circles in limbo,
falling while watching the sun as it peeks,
from in between spaces of the leaves of the trees,
where the falling leaf used to live.




-eamarifosque 041413-

Words do Fail

to describe what I see with my own two eyes,
of the beauty the morning sun brings
as it breaks the darkness as it wakes.

to describe what I can feel when I reach out to touch,
the things that surround me
in my own corner of the world.

to describe what I can hear whenever I close my eyes,
the music and laughter of the birds chirping,
and the way the wind whispers as it passes me by.

to describe the taste of life I am living at the moment
where love is ever present and comforting,
a special ingredient that I shouldn't forsake.





-eamarifosque 041313-

Tangled Lines

How to unravel these tangled lines
of words in a jumbled mind?
To bring order to an already chaotic world
filled with monsters and heroes
and abandoned caves and decaying palaces?

How to unravel thoughts wound up tight,
stuck in a crowded room of daydreams,?
To separate the myths from the truths,
and bring out a story that will amuse?






-eamarifosque 041213-

What's A Little

What's a little pain every now and then?
Even when you bleed, wounds do heal.
Scars can get left behind
along with their memories,
but the pain you can keep inside,
under a lock and key.

What's a little hurt from time to time?
You're alive hence you feel.
But the hurt can disappear if you allow it to,
and replace it with something better,
even when you feel like there is nothing
that will make you smile once more.

What's a little bit of goodbyes,
when lovers go their separate ways?
When the morrow might bring a bit of rainbow
after the rain?
Bringing solace after all the hurt and pain.




-eamarifosque 041113-

The Sea

By the shore the sea becomes hesitant,
touching sand yet receding back to its beginnings.
Afraid to pass a world not of its own kind,
yet always there to test its courage,
stepping boldly on sunlit land until fear returns
and pushes it back to its frothy home.

-eamarifosque 041013-

Waiting in Silence

Waiting for a bit of sunshine
to break the dark clouds hovering,
over a mind imbued in silence
while waiting in vain.

Waiting for a bit of life
to course through these cold days,
melting ice and frost
to reveal a verdant valley.

Waiting for a bit of love
to fill this empty seat,
while watching what's left of the night,
for a more glorious morning.

-eamarifosque 040913-